Really?

Sometimes I just want to say to God, "Really?"  This is one of those times.  Today when we found out that Addison's x-rays had come back abnormal and indicative of the same basilar invagination that Hope has, I just wanted to question God.  I know better.  Really I do.  I know that all things work for the good of those who love him.  I know that there will be good that comes from this situation.  But right now, I'm not seeing it.  These precious angels have been so much in their short little lives, and now this?  Really?  Yes, I'm thankful that I have that stubborn streak that didn't allow me to give up finding answers.  Yes, I'm thankful that I asked if Addie was at risk due to the identical twin status.  I think I knew what the answer would be, even if it wasn't "typically" hereditary.  Ignorance was bliss for awhile.  Now reality sets in.  We are fortunate to have such amazing family & friends who I know would do anything to help.  Their love and support has already been phenomenal.  For that I am eternally grateful.  Now we have to face this head on, ask for help when we need it, and accept help when it's offered. 

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."  Romans 12:12  This is my constant prayer...