One of those days

I apologize in advance for this one. It's sort of the result of a combination of things - lack of sleep, feeling crummy, sick kids, etc. What I need is a good cry. I'm tired. I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired of having sick kids. I'm tired of not getting anything done because I feel crummy. I'm tired of not getting anything done because I spend my time trying to keep puny kids content. I need a miracle. I need a long period of time of health for all of us. It's so frustrating to just get them feeling good again only to send them back to school to bring something else home within days. This makes homeschooling appealing. We have been sick more than healthy probably since August, but definitely since October. I'm just needing something, and I don't even know what. Encouragement? Maybe. Antibiotics? Maybe. But since the girls have a doctor's appointment today, Mama can't. It probably wouldn't do any good, though, since when they go back to school we'll get something else. Yeah, I know. Wah, wah, poor me. I'm just praying for strength. I'm praying for health. I'm praying for optimism. Sometimes it's just hard to see the stars through the heavy clouds.