Candy pizza anyone?

We have had a fun morning. I wanted to make something special with the girls today so they'd have something to look forward to after they get done with school tomorrow. I know it's going to be an emotionally draining day for all of us, but I want to be able to focus on the fun stuff tomorrow. We spent the morning making first frosting, then the crusts and toppings for our candy pizzas. They thought the whole idea of a cookie/frosting/candy pizza was a great thing! In fact, Hannah's exact words were, "This is prob'ly gonna be the best pizza EVER!" It should make for a major sugar rush, but that's okay. Anything for them...

Although I'm much less stressed-out about them going to school since we've decided to send them half-days, it's still weighing heavily on my mind. That's not true. It's weighing heavily on my heart. My mind knows that this is the beginning of such a fun time in their lives. My problem is that I'm ruled much more by my heart than my head. Logically I can count my blessings that they have gone from such rocky beginnings to healthy, happy, intelligent little girls. It's amazing to me to think back on those days when I honestly wondered if the twins would ever eat orally. There were days that I had my doubts. What amazing progress they've made! If only I could overpower the feelings with the thoughts. The feelings come from so much deeper though. When they were in the hospital and so fragile, we did what we had to do to muddle through. Looking back, I don't know how I survived going home while Boo was still in the hospital. I went two-week spans without seeing her. I don't know how Gary survived working in Topeka everyday and driving to KC every evening to spend time with Boo before heading to the Ronald McDonald House for the night. I was strong when I had to be, but now I fall apart a little more easily. It's okay to feel the feelings now. It's what has made me the person I am today, and I'm much better off because of it. I learned to advocate for what I believe in. That in itself is priceless. I truly believe it's all been part of God's plan for me.