Confidence? Me?

I've worked out this morning, so I'm feeling good about the day. It's amazing how much more energy and confidence I have when I begin the day with some exercise. I need to keep that up as I am severely lacking in the confidence area. I put on a good show - you know, the smile, the always-in-control look, the brave face - but I am a ball of nerves on the inside. I don't really know why I do it. Maybe it's that I'm afraid to let anyone in on the real me. I'm sensitive and have been hurt, but who hasn't? To some degree I am angry at myself for allowing others to hurt me, and that's difficult to get over. I have forgiven others, I just have to forgive myself as well. I was a people-pleaser for a long time, until my daughters were born and I felt that they deserved for me to stand up for them, no matter what anyone else thought. Okay, I just had an AHA! moment. I've never thought I was important enough to stand up and say what I think. That's probably why I was overweight as well. I just wasn't important, I wasn't a priority. That seems like such an easy realization to make. I do deserve to be healthy. I do deserve to be happy. I do deserve to have an opinion that matters.