Need a Sign…

Sometimes I pray for a sign guiding me to the right decision.  Sometimes I pray for multiple signs.  Sometimes I pray for large flashing signs.  I overthink things.  I know I do.  I worry too much.  I also withhold too much.  I try to work through things on my own far too often.  That’s not to say that I’m not praying like a fiend about things, but I’m not always comfortable talking about my worries.  It’s definitely something I need to improve.  But until then, I’m just going to continue praying for signs that I’m doing the right or wrong thing and try to pay attention to see those signs.  I feel like I miss the signs…just like Bruce…

Bruce Almighty–Signs from God!

Mene the Wonder Puppy

It’s official.  We’re dog owners.  We’re proud dog owners of a yellow lab who is the smartest, sweetest puppy ever!  She has has us well-trained already.  Here’s the little sugar pie…

Oh no…They know!

I’m really surprised it lasted as long as it did.  They’re smart kids, and they always, always, ALWAYS, figure things out.  This was a big one, though.  Last night I was snugged in with Hope & Addison watching the Macy’s fireworks show from NYC.  Out of the blue, Hope says, “I know Dad gave me the Easter basket, so I know that’s not real.  But are you Santa?”  She was so sincere in her question that I asked her if she really wanted to know the truth.  She did.  So I told her.  Yes, I’ve been Santa.  That led to me admitting to be the tooth fairy.  For the next 45 minutes she was asking me about all the things “Santa” had given her in years past.  She and Addie were both laughing uncontrollably with every admission of “guilt.”  They questioned me about how we got the presents under the tree so early in the morning.  “Who eats the cookies?”  “So YOU gave us those dolls?”  “YOU wrote my name so fancy on my tooth fairy envelopes?”  “YOU put stuff in our stockings?”  It was priceless to listen to them figure it all out.  At one point, Hope said, “And here I thought all these characters were giving me stuff!”  They asked what I did with the teeth.  It was nearly never-ending.  But then, the absolute best line of the entire ordeal came from Hope.  “He does NOT see me when I’m sleeping or know when I’m awake!”  My response to that?  “Well, yes SHE does, as a matter of fact!”    They haven’t asked about the birthday bird yet.  Maybe we’ll keep that little piece of childhood a little longer!

Blessings

I catch myself sometimes asking the inevitable question of trials:  “Why me?”  And to be honest, it’s not even usually a question of “Why me?” but a question of “Why them?”  What I mean is, I have a couple children who have faced a multitude of difficulties since their birth.  And one would think that eventually they would begin to sort of earn their way out of trials.  That’s what I would hope for at least.  It doesn’t seem to work that way.  They have been fighting through difficulties from the very beginning and continue to do so to this day.  But as I get wiser and stronger (which seems to have happened only because I have endured those struggles as well), I realize that we are amazingly blessed because we have been through so much, not in spite of enduring so much.  That’s kind of a big AH-HA moment, I think.  Had we not had to fight for everything we have, we would have taken these things for granted just like so many other people do.  I would not have been as excited about every little accomplishment.  I would not have seen the importance of letting go of the little things and focusing only on the big picture.  I have realized that I need to give my worries to God.  And believe me, I have.  I know the importance of having a supportive core of family and friends, and I am so fortunate to have them.  I’m also realizing that there are people who just can’t be included in my life, and that’s difficult for me to understand.  There are those who far overestimate their importance in the grand scheme of things, and I just can’t allow that toxicity in my life.  Probably the biggest and most important realization is that this is not my home.  This is preparation for my eternal life.  I think I’m going to well-prepared.

Part of the inspiration for this post was from the song “Blessings” by Laura Story.  Take a listen.  You will not be sorry.  ~ D

Blessings by Laura Story

Hmmm...

I'm having one of those moments that I almost don't want to acknowledge for fear of breaking the 'spell' that is currently in effect.  We have friends coming tonight for a cookout, and we're trying to get lots of things done today.   I've been working in the living room and kitchen, but Hope and Addie have told me they're in charge of the table.  They have it sparkling clean and just finished sweeping the kitchen floor.  It's so nice to have their help!  Hannah is working on her room...I think.  It's almost too quiet in there, like there's nothing being accomplished.  Maybe I'd better go check that out...

Shaping Up!

Since I seem to require a journey, of sorts, I'm embarking on a new one.  Well, it's not actually new, it's just revived.  And maybe it's not that I think I require a journey, but that God thinks I require a journey.  I'm just taking off on a new one before He throws another undesirable journey my way!  There have been other adventures that have had to take precedence over this one, but I think I'm finally in a place where this journey can come near the top of my list of priorities.  Curious yet?  I'm back on the get-healthy wagon.  I haven't taken care of myself in the last ?? months.  I have been consumed by things bigger than myself, so I had to take the back seat.  I wouldn't change that.  My job as a mother is to demonstrate love, and that's precisely what I have done.  Now I have to give myself that same love and care, because that's important too.  I have teamed up with two fantastic friends, and we are on a mission.  We all have different goals, but we're cheering each other on and holding each other accountable.  I need that.  I need to have someone who is willing to cheer for me when I accomplish something and kick me in the pants when I need it.  I think they can handle the job! :)  So I'm excited about getting back to it with my friends.  We might not see each other often, but we're going to share our ups and downs in the coming months.  I can't wait!

Summer!

I think it's definitely summer in Kansas.  I had hoped to have a cool summer, but I don't think that's going to happen.  Hope finally got rid of the heat rash on her back yesterday, so I'm trying to keep her cool enough so she doesn't develop another one in the near future.  The girls have been going out as soon as they get dressed in the morning to take care of Gilbert (the bunny).  This works out pretty well since he's not a big fan of the heat either.  The girls are also doing some summer homework-type activities for me.  It keeps them in the learning mood and also keeps them busy.  Addie's already got a plan to get a book about the Eiffel Tower when we go to the library tomorrow. 

Our latest news is that we'll be adding another critter to the family next month.  We will be the proud family of a yellow lab puppy that was born on May 31.  Hope wants to name it Minnie.  Her sisters want to name it Molly.  We'll see what happens...  It should be fun!